This is not a question that a depressed person loves to hear. I mean, of course its nice to have people talk to you, and at least act like they truly care.
This morning someone asked me this question, and I said “I am good Charlie, thank you. How about yourself?”
**Flashback to last night when I was crying my face off, mascara streaming down my cheeks**
I hate lying, but people don’t want the honest answer of a depressed person. “I’m pretty shitty. I cried myself to sleep last night, thinking about all the things I need and wish I could be, but I am not any of them. My house is a mess like my head, and I can’t get above it to the clouds to see how pleasant life should really be.”
I was honestly having a couple of decent days, it doesn’t take much to trigger it and put me in lounge mode, especially after I just got done having a depressive state.
Being in a crowd of people you don’t know, but maybe 2 people is also a trigger for me. I know not to do that again. And it doesn’t help when my ex, who I’m with the whole time I’m there, runs into people left and right, and fails to introduce me them. That’s really bothersome to me, and makes me want to treat him with the bitchiest tendencies I have grown to do. Maybe I should tell him. Yea….