Three things I am grateful for.
- My kids
- My dogs
- My program
I am feeling overwhelmed and paralyzed. I don’t want to do shit. So much needs to be done but I can’t even fathom doing these things. When I think of them again, I tell myself “Oh, I’ll do that at 5.” Knowing full well, when 5 approaches, it sure isn’t going to change a thing.
What is this lack of motivation. It’s so much more saddening. I’ve spent a month in PHP, started to improve, and now going back down that slippery slop again.
I need to work, I need to be a great mother and role model for my children. It hurts this fucked up heart I have that I cannot even do these things.
I just don’t want to do anything right now.